Today....i saw that my love got attack in kimpo chinese airport,so pity he was,it's really hurt my heart,i cried bcoz of that,i knew he didnot make a mistake,but i dont know how come the af had a heartless to be hurt my minnie,whereas he really didnt do anything that made af hurt,..i dont know what the af thingking...they couldnt do that eventhough minnie had mistake....those's not their bussinEss

Minnie~a.....r u ok? I'm really worried about you...did they really make u hurt? If like that,i'll kill them,i'll make them hurt more than u got...
I know it is dangerous think,but i really cant receive with what they did to you....

They're hurt u,they're hurt me too.....
All your fans maybe have the same think with me...
I knew,i saw u touch your head after u got attack from them,is your head ok? Do u get g headache?
Please tell me,so i can be calm...

Minnie~a......if i can be next to you eternally,i'll do everything u want,to make u happy.....
I know,maybe this love u never know,coz u never know about me also...but till now,i still dont know how make this love lost for my mind n my heart,what i know that love u in this time make me have more power,more strenght,n more confidence....even my love for u just for dreaming,i'm still loving u......

My heart ìs full of illness bcoz of L.O.V.E

Minnie~ah........
U've made hurt my heart,i got broken heart bcoz of u......
Since i knew u had 1st kiss that u did with somegirl whom i never know.....
Why i must feel it?
Feel how ill bcome the second.....i nver hope it to me.....but who thought that come to me,n' i got it.....
How sick my heart cz of u minnie.....

For a long time,i never felt how wonder is love.....
Now i know.......

but the beauty love comes with ill n sickness....how much that i must make the sacrifices to feel it.....

Lovin' u.....
Make me wonder
Lovin' u......
like a foolish girl
Lovin' u.......
In my evryday
Lovin' u.....
You're so precious to me
Lovin' u.....
I'll never let go ur hand even only a tears....

I'm going crazy coz my love 4 u.....
Hard to say no n 4get u.....
Even i know u're not the only one 4 me....
But i cant 4get u n loose ur shadow in my mind....
So hard,n' too hard if i do that.....

I never know that my feel 4 u became deeply....n made me getting sick bcz of L.O.V.E

I never realize that my love 4 u more than the air i breath.....

I love you.......i lovd you........

How to lost it?
I get pain,i get hurt....
My body,my heart is sick,the illness covering my body....

Even like that.....
One thing,i dunno why i never feel dissapointed to know,meet,n' love you.....
One thing that i have to do is i must let u go to get what do u want.....
I'm always here,next to u,to support u....to see how happy u're there.....
I always happy if u happy,even in my heart inside so sick.....
I'm trying to be someone that joy my beauty life althought without u minnie.....

edit 4rm some blog, coz i do love them so i wanna bothered by their pic ^^
enjoy your read^^
coz when i made this writing i very enjoy^^
and i'm in love to yunjae couple(what a pity changminQ here xb)
changminQ become the lovest soon??? OMG
appa yun ho and umma jaejung so romantis, the sweetest one couple in this world
wakakakakakakakak.....................................

YunJae Sweetness... Derita Changmin

Lagi-lagi tentang YunJae nih ehehehe maklumin aja ya lagi demam Yunjae soalnya :P by the way this going to be a rather long entry with a load of graphics

you know I don’t believe in fanservice (you trust me don’t you? :P) despite the fact that I do LOVE seeing bishounen pairings very very much, I mean what is more amusing than a bishounen other than 2 bishounen altogether showing their love to one another?? But I do not believe that they are real, I really don’t. I understand that they are just doing a mere fanservice to please fangirl (like myself) that is one thing I love from Japanese entertainment industry they did some effort to please girl fans to this extent and not just focusing on male consumers all the time. But if somehow, someday I discover fact that those male stars are really gay I really don’t mind XDD.

Back to the topic, although I did mention that I didn’t believe in fanservice, but with this Yunho x Jaejoong couple, they are so fishy I am not 100% sure whether it’s real or not cause they looked too real…Then after seeing their couple interview from all about TVXQ season2 in youtube I’m almost sure they are tada skinship ga atsui shinyuu(a good friends with a strong skinship)… In Japanese there are this thing called Skinship, an engrish Japanese word that shows a degree of affinity between people by the touch of skins, not only between couple but between family & friends as well … perhaps Yunho & Jaejoong are this type of friends (with strong skinship), I can understand that because I think I’m also the type of person who like to have a strong skinship with my bestfriends, but then I’m a girl… I think girls are used to having strong skinship with each other (deshou??) it looks more weird if two boys are having strong skinship connection (it is a gender bias thing :P) that is why people can easily mistakes them as gay, even I am not really sure… But whether they are real gay couple or not, I still LOVE seeing them together…

These are some sweet things I notice about them

Sometimes when Jaejoong are shy or bursting to laughter, he love to lean over, come to Yunho, or hides behind his back XDD


And I find that really really cute ^0^

also I don’t know why but I think Yunho really loves to put his hands on Jaejoongs lap or suddenly touching Jaejoongs hand



http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/changminyunjaefan5b.gif


and that looks really suspicious XD but sometime Jaejoongie also did the same thing


And the last thing they LOVE to feed each other (suap2an)


suap-suapan di radio show
suapin Yunho
Aaah~ mou~ kawaikute tamaranai kono futari pokonya YunJae forever dah… I hope they stay close for a long long time XD
anyway if someone knows another highly noticeable YunJae sweetness, please do share it with me XD I’m totally hooked with them right now

Kali ini cerita tentang Changmin yang sering banget jadi saksi hidup kemesraan Umma & Appa nya yg selalu mesra setiap saat sepanjang waktu, ceritanya formasi regular Dongbangshinki kan kaya gini

Jadinya Changmin paling sering terjebak diantara pasangan mesra Yunhoo & Jaejoong :p
Kaya disini

Disini

Disini
derita changmin2.gif


Lagi

Dan lagi
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/Deritachangmin11.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/derita-changmin-10.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/derita-changmin4.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/derita-changmin.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/deritachangmin9.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/deritachangmin3.jpg
Wah klo dipajang semua ga ada habisnya deh, emang pasangan ini klo mesra-mesraan dah ga inget klo ada orang diantara mereka ato ngga XDD ga cuma Changmin Yoochun juga suka jadi korban



Mungkin yang paling ga terpengaruh Junsu doang ya?

Well guess again

Tapi tetep Changmin yg paling sering ya, karena posisinya yg 'menguntungkan' itu dia yg suka jadi saksi utama some of the sweetest yunjae moments
Kaya yg ini

http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/yunjaemoment2.gif
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/yunjaemoment3.gif
(aaw~ mau dong~ tuker posisi ama ChangminXD)
Tapi kayanya Changmin happy2 aja ada diantara Umma & Appanya

sampai ada teori dia anak kesayangan Yunho & Jaejoong

Atau jangan2 dia adalah the greatest YunJae fans lagi :P


http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/changminyunjaefan3.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/Changminyunjaefan.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/Changminyunjaefan6.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/Changminyunjaefan.jpg
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y109/Shira_Ai/yunjae/changminyunjaefan5.jpg

Mungkin dia juga pengen diperhatiin sama Appa-nya


kaya Yoochun yg pengen diperhatiin ama Umma-nya

tapi gagal

XDD

tapi biar gimana Dong Bang Shin Ki masih tetep one happy family ya ^o^

lagi kumat

karena cintaku lagi ngeluarin album baru, sakit gw kambuh lagi..............
lagian kenapa mereka transform jadi cool kayak git ce...........
bikin penyakit gw makin parah aja.

orang gw uda mo tobat, masih aja ada gangguan.............
biari deh, bentar lagi juga baakl ilang.........hehehehehe........................
yang gw mo ceritain tuh, mereka........si TVXQ sekarang udah balik lagi
come back with their talent that become the stronger man than years ago, they become the gorgeous man and full of energy.........i'm so happy when i look them
OMO...............i'll faint...................XD

my oppa

you are my purple line...........................................
entah kenapa setiap gw mo hentikan rasa ini,gw ngerasa berat......
apa aku sudah benar2 teracuni oleh dunia????
aku gak pengen begitu........aku gak pengen jauh dari ROB-ku.........bagaimana aku harus menghilangkan rasa ini, somebody please help me..........aku mau keluar dari semua ini........aku mau in my mind, heart, and soul only think about YOU my lord.......there is nobody except YOU..........my love i wanna give to YOU........i wanna YOU be my everything.........
YOU're the only love forever.............can i????????????????

i hope it feel can be real.................
i dont want to give my love for every body who become YOUR enemies........
i never let go.........i'm gonna make away.......i find ever way..............please trush me my LORD..............
my love for YOU goes on&on, the song which make my heart so cool to love YOU i wanna throw all.............so please give me a little time to go back to YOU...........please wait me patiently...........your love is all i need surely.........................................

ntar aja y................

capek neh...............
dari tadi gw ngerjain makalah an d3 jam baru selese......
gak ada yang ngebantuin pula.........T.T

gajk papa deh..........gw kan uda janji mo perang di kuliah ni,gw uda bukan siswa lagi...........
udah maha siswa gitu loh..........so i must be strong..............
natr aja gw posting lagi, sekarang gw mo rest dulu............udah panas ne bottom,hehehehehehe...................

heve a nice day everybody............
and happy fasting..........^^

akhirnya..............

akhirnya...............................

selesei juga ospek yang bener2 menyiksa gw,gw pikir apa ce gunanya tu ospek di jalanin????

nyusahin bgt tau gak ce...............bikin gw sebel aja
*ingat...ingat puasa nduk harus extra sabar, tu kan ujian buat lo..........*

sebenernya gw tau kakak tu orangnya baik2 bgt tapi gak tau kenapa kalo kumat teriak2 mereka, bikin gw pengen marah aja....belum lagi suruh bawa barang2 yang aneh bin ajaib nya na'uzubillah mindzalik dah...........
ydah berat bgt, tapi harus di bawa kemanapun, bikin capek ga ce tu tugas

tiap hari kita maba(mahasiswa baru) di suruh buat artikel and dikumpulin esok harinya, padahal kita pulang nya aja udah malem bgt,ngerepotin, ngeribetin, ngejengkelin dll dah........supek gw.................

tapi untungnya kakak pembina nkelompok gw tu sabar2
especially kak fajar and kak lily, dua orang yang yang cakep2 plus sabar abizzzzzzzzzz.................
love me to you all,special for kak fajar ariadi i love you.................hehehehehehe Xb

kemarin hari terakhir ospek kita di suru bwt 5 surat buat kakak senior yang kindest, most favorite, badest, handsomest, and most beautiful..........
gw tentu aja kasih sebagian surat gw ke kak fajar buat handsomest and favorite gw, satu surat buat kak lily for category most beautiful, and kak agus for baddest one, wakakakakakakakakakak..............................gw gak nyangka temen2 juga punya piikiran yang sama..........kak agus dapat banyak surat karna kejahatan yang telah ia perbuat........rasain..........makanya jangan suka teriak2! hapir jebol neh gendang telinga gw kabanyakan dengar suara kakak............................

tapi semua penyiksaan ini berakhir sudah.............gw sekarang mo fokus hadapi medan perang baru aja akan di mulai...........................

udah dulu postingan gw kali ini, gw mo berangkat kuliah dulu...........gw mo ketemu ma kak fajar dulu..........hehehehehe...........Xb
see ya.............................................

sebel.......................

sebel bgt ne gw......................
ternyata gitu tho yang namanya ospek
gw gak nyangka bener2 ngnyiksa,moga aja tu senior2 dosanya di ampuni ma ALLAh karna gw rasa tu dosa kakak2 senior bwaaaaaanyaaaaaaaaakkkkkkk bgt ke anak2 yang lain,tau gak ce kalo kita semua sama2 puasa????

alasan apapun gak ada yang benerin kalian untuk buat gitu ke kami......
bayangin aja,kita di suruh sholat dalam waktu 15 menit, sedangkan musholla tempay sholat yang di pke kwecil bgt, toilet yang di sedian cuma ada 2 saluran sedangkan yang mo wudlu' bujibun bgt banyak nya.....
anak2 yang banyak nya lebih dari 350 anak mana bisa dalam 15menit bisa ngelakuin itu semua.........di mana tuh otak kakak senior???
gw sangsi, masih tertempel gak ce otak mereka di kepala???
kalo emang masih ada, kenapa merek gak bisa mikir dengan normal????

sebeeeeeeeeellllllllll................sebel...................

YA ALLAH beri hambaMU ini kesabaran extra untuk menghadapi ini semua.........
tinggal 2hari lagi.........

ida.......hwaiting............. you can do it............

SYAHR FULL OF FORGIVENESS FROM GOD

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan …..

Ditulis pada Kamis

Dalam Kitab Durratun Naasihiin diriwayatkan tentang kisah disyari’atkannya puasa.

Dikatakan bahwa yang dimaksud dengan puasa ialah menekan musuh Allah (Setan). Dan sesungguhnya setan memanfaatkan nafsu syahwat sebagai alat penggoda. Kekuatan sang nafsu akan bertambah disebabkan makan dan minum.

Karena itulah menurut kisah kejadiannya, bahwa setelah Allah menciptakan akal dan nafsu, Allah memerintahkan mereka menghadap-Nya. Kemudian ditanya satu persatu. Sang akalpun datang menghadap dan ketika disuruh berbalik, berbaliklah ia. Lalu Allah pun bertanya kepadanya, “Man ana wa man anta? (siapa saya dan siapa kamu?)”. Maka dengan tawadhu’ sang akal menjawab, “Anta Rabbiy wa ana ‘abduka adh dhoif (Engkau Tuhanku dan aku hamba-Mu yang lemah)”. Karena itu Allah memberinya kemuliaan.

Sedangkan nafsu, ketika diperintahkan untuk menghadap, ia diam saja tidak menjawab. Dan ketika ditanya dengan pertanyaan yang sama, dengan sombongnya dia menjawab, “Ana wa ana, Anta wa anta (aku ya aku, Engkau ya Engkau”. Karena kekurangajarannya itulah maka Allah menghukumnya dengan memasukkan dia ke dalam neraka jahiim selama seratus tahun. Setelah dikeluarkan dari neraka dan ditanya dengan pertanyaan semula, diapun menjawabnya dengan jawaban yang sama. Akhirnya Allah menempatkannya di dalam neraka Juu’ (tempat dengan rasa lapar yang amat sangat) selama seratus tahun pula. Ia dibiarkan tanpa makan dan minum. Dan ternyata puasa itulah yang membuatnya sadar dan tak berdaya. Ia menyerah dan mengakui bahwa Allah adalah Tuhan yang menciptakannya.

Demikianlah, kisah klasik yang terdapat dalam kitab Durratun Naasihiin yang menjelaskan bahwa puasa adalah sarana yang paling ampuh untuk menundukkan hawa nafsu.

*****

Alhamdulillah kita masih diberi kesempatan untuk menjumpai bulan Ramadhan dan menjalankan ibadah puasa di bulan ini. Semoga puasa kali ini dapat lebih meningkatkan ketaqwaan kita dan menajamkan mata hati kita. Kepada kawan-kawan dan para tetangga yang menjalankan ibadah puasa, tak lupa saya ucapkan:

oooOOOooo

MARHABAN YA RAMADHAN

marhaban ya RAMADHAN................
bentar lagi qt udah nyambut datangnya bulan penuh rahmat, dan ampunan, bulan penuh berkah rahmat and ridlo NYA
moga QT bisa menjalan kan ibadah ini dengan penuh rasa ikhlas.

aku juga sangat berharap di bulan ni aku bisa ngurangin cinta aku ma dunia yang sangat amat menggoda........
gak bisa di pungkiri aku telah shared my love that i supposed to give just for my LOVELY GOD with anyone else....
so i wanna loose everything that can make my mind so far form think about ALLAH
ya ALLAH,.........pease forguve ne for everything i did........i wanna try to change my mind and focus think about YOU, i'll try not to share my love and give all my love just for YOU..........bcoz YOU"r the greatest one

minnie,sory my love for you just in my dream
i wanna loose you.........good bey...........

dream concert tvxq 2008

wah..............gw barusan aja liat drem concert nya tvxq taon ne..........
heboh bgt dah pokoke.........mereka jadi artis utama and then di lagu mereka juga di barengi pesrta kembang api, seru bgt...............
para cassie juga banyak bgt sampe terliat nakutin, di dream concert ni juga teah terjadi beberapa insiden yang gak ngenakin bgt buat member tvxq or para cassie nya ndiri, para cassie dianggap telah buat kerusuhan bantu para e.l.f (nama fans dari super junior) padahal tu semua kan gara2 fans nya SNSD yang super ganjen itu, ngapan juga cassie di ikut2in .........jadi makin sebel gw ma mereka.........
untung aja kakang2 gw yang ganteng ne gak marah ma cassie,secara mereka kan juga tau apa ayng bikin para cassie ngelakuin itu

contains of my heart

kepinginan gw bwt dapetin laptop bulan ni ternyata harus di cancel dulu beberapa bulan, bahkan mungkn aja ampe taun depan.........ya ternyata i have many problem that i must solve it before....
gak papa deh,munkin ini juga karna niat gw yang masih belum gw tata sepenuhnya makanya ALLAH masih gak ngizinin gw punya itu........
gw ce ngerasa agak dongkol juga,sedih bgt gak bisa dapetinnya, karna tu kan kepinginan gw selama bertaon2,sekarang malah harus gw cancel, even in fact i can get it but i chose not buy it these days.
gw lebih milih gunain uang yang asal nya buat beli laptop buat beliin dedek2 gw hape baru,meski bukan barang or tipe baru tapi tu cukup bagus buat dia.

di bulan ni gw juga banyak bgt sst yang bikin gw shock,ya salah satunya my lovely first love will be married soon...........aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh,after i heard that news i got shock,tapi gw gak cinta2 bgt kik ma dia, dia emang lebih cocok jadi kakak gw kok, jadi gw gak terlalu sedih2 juga.
selain tu di bulan yang sama, tepatnya 5hari yang lalu nenek gw meniggal, sedih???
ya pastilah......dia kan nenek gw, meski gw gak punya sedikitpun kenangan manis ma dia,gimanapun juga dia tetep nenek gw.........seorang ibu yang uda bikin bapak buat gw,nenek moga bahagia di alam sana..........gimana pun perlakuan nenek terhadap ku dlu uda aku maafin sepenuhnya.........selamat tinggal nenek............gimanapun juga aku tetep sayang nenek........................

pindah ke sst yang agak nyenengin,akhirnya gw keterima di college pilian gw,seneng nya ................tapi temen gw yang test bareng gw gak keterima,kasian bgt gw ma dia, tapi mw gimana lagi, tu kan uda keputusan dari college nya.............gw berharap dia tetep gak give up, meski gak keterima........mbak hanum meski kita gak satu skul lagi kita harus semangat, hidup pejuang science...............
kalo masalah value gw pas waktu ikut exam kemarin ce gw ndiri gak tau dapet berapa, yang pasti gw uda lakuin yang terbaik and hasilnya gw juga uda keterima di situ.......gak lupa gw bilang thanks to GOD, i love YOU so much........ALHAMDULILLAH

met HUT RI 63 my lovely country

met ultah my lovely country.........forgive me i am be able to give you my best job for you........and i still can't show you everything that make you proud of me....

anyway something that make my country proud, yesterday i watched tv, i looked that markis kido to be the winner and got a gold medal in olimpiade beijing, congratulation to you, i'm very proud of you......
and i never thought that markis kido was a moslem, till i watched his mom had been interviewed........i fall in love to him suddenly....
i have many wish in my country's birthday
first of all, i hope that my country to be a good in all departement
2. i hope that my country become the better one next
3. hope my country can solve all his problem
4. all that the good thing can be gotten by my lovely country.....
love you forever and ever my lovely...............................

ketemu

akhirnya lagu tvxq yang selama ini gw cari gw temuin juga......susah bgt carinya, di mp3charm and 4shared.com gw utek2 tu web selama satu jam tapi gak ketemu juga,padahal biasanya juga cuma buktu waktu 5menit doank buat nemuin nya,tapi kali ini gw harus usaha extra keras.........tapi semuyanya usaha gw emang gak sia2 ce.............
sekarang gw sweneng bgt, lagu doushite kimi ni shimattan darou emang easy listeni9ng bgt dah, gw jantuh cintrong ma tuh lagu, sayang nya gw masih gak bisa naruh di blog gw,so mian gw gak bisa share ma kamu ni lagu.....duh gw bela2in cari tu lagu sampe pantat gw puanas puuol,tapi gakpapa ceh demi dengerin suara minniQ tercinta,apapun gw lakuin*gombal gw lagi kumat nehh*

today is my birthday

hi every body..............i come back to meet you again!!!

give you 1 announcement that today is my birthday.....pray for me in order that i can pass my life luckily and become useful person in this life ><

for minnieQ......i'm your nunna now....then you must call me nunna ok??? Xb